[PNRP] Gamemode Development

I know that I got banned for good, but I really have been thinking about how much work I put into the server. I understand that Crazykid has given me many chances to stop being an asshole. And I have tried, but its not that easy when half the staff hates you and makes fun of you for being a kid behind your back. That isn't the point thought, the point is that I was a dick and I really apologize for that. TBU is what introduced me to Garrys Mod. I have been playing PNRP for about 3to4 years and I thought TBU was a great server. And I still do, even though I am banned. I am willing to do anything to get unban. I have changed and I'm nicer to new people now. I've learned how to handle my anger and I don't get all frigging cocky like I use too. I understand why the super admins had a problem with me or didn't like me. It was because I was dick to a lot of people and I really do understand that. My friend has actually talked some sense into me after I got ban because I was really pissed off. And I understand what I did wrong now. I really don't want my respected back now because I know that I don't deserve it. I just want to be unban and given one more chance if I screw up again, thats my fault. And I will understand if I get ban. The littlest thing I do wrong I want to be punished. Now I understand that being a dick gets you no where. If you guys can't change your minds about my ban please atleast let me talk to one of yous. I understand that me being a total complete jerk gives the server a bad reputation because I've experienced this before. A couple times on PN a lot of people were jerks to me and it made me not want to play the server anymore. And I understand that is what I was doing to all those new players by being a total jerk when they joined.
I know now to actually report things to admins instead of handling it myself and getting into deep crap all the time. I PROMISE I will be 100% better this time. It just didn't make sense how much shit I made and how much stuff I got and then I just screw up and get myself ban.
After I thought about it and stopped being ignorant for 5 seconds I actually started to catch onto why I got ban and how I was a jerk off all the time. And I really want to change everything, and show you guys that I can better. I really do mean this all, and I don't want to lie and be a dick anymore. I just want one more chance, and I know that I can be 100% better than I was before.
But on the other hand I don't want admins talking to me and getting me angry so I flip out on them like I always did before. And honestly if I do that then I want it to be discussed with the lead admin and if you think I should be ban again then fine.
I've had so many good times on TBU with friends etc...and I just don't want all my time spent on there wasted just like it is now.
So please just let me have one more chance. I promise you won't regret it!
I know that this will probably not change your minds but I liked playing so much that I thought "Hell with it, why don't I do it anyway."

Thank You TBU, and please try and reconsider my ban!

Moved this to the correct area, please pay attention to how the forums are setup.

You were pretty mean to most of the players you met, i watched RCON and I disguised myself as a new player to test if you'd be mean to me, and you had cornered me chanting "noob" over and over with Infamous punching me and shooting my feet. You also took rules into your own hands and bent and broke most of them when you fought with ZeashosZanzair, and even after I had told you not to do so you continued to anyways. You were one of the players we kept our eyes on to make sure you'd learn and abide by rules, but time after time you hadn't listened.

Although I disliked the way you treated players and the way you thought ignoring admins was a good idea, I do believe everyone deserves second chances. And as one of the Superadmins of PostnukeRP, I vote to give you another chance to prove yourself on our servers but do keep in mind I'll have my eye on you, like I do with all players. I warn you now, if you treat players like you had done before your ban I'll see to it you'll be punished accordingly. Now I don't want you running up to new players and being extremely nice and offering them everything you have just to show that you're a supernice guy infront of all the admins, but I do want you to think twice before you call somone a noob or treat a new player like trash, afterall, I may be one of those new players again

i won't say much because i'm not good at constructing paragraphs of any sort. i think you're a snobby immature little child and i'll believe you are until i forget your name. i am willing to let you have another chance but if i ever need to punish you it won't be lightly.